I am breathing again, slowly realizing that I am not on my own anymore. Not that I stopped breathing, ever. But it does feel like when Gurvan left, back in October, I took a deep deep breath and immersed myself in my solo-mama role. So much that all my energy merged towards my babies needs and well-being. While I managed to post photos here and there on Instagram, I failed at keeping up with this little blog of mine. I tried. I sat down a few times when both sweethearts were sleeping, I wrote a few posts, sharing about my emotions but nothing sounded good enough to me. I was so deeply exhausted that my brain couldn't word my feelings properly. I feel guilty for not fighting enough. Though I am emerging from a long fight against the deepest exhaustion of all. The internet is a tricky world, one that may empower us, one that may reveal our weaknesses. This corner I created is important to me. My Ego truly doesn't care who will read this but my Soul needs to do her talking through writing. It is who I am. I have dearly missed threading words together. I did a lot of talking with myself, by myself, all those long long days when I didn't get to talk to an adult for longer than I ever thought would be possible.
So while I did share photos on my Instagram account (and that's really all the online socializing I have done), I haven't made time to post the last few photos of my 52 project in 2016 here. It is so easy to let weeks after weeks go by. It was the purpose of the project when I started it two years ago : a creative d i s c i p l i n e. I have come to realize that I need this discipline, it has helped tremendously with my non-practical-self. I didn't know I needed that discipline so badly until I let go of it a few month ago. Things happen in life, we can't control it all and sometimes we just have to go with the flow and sleep when we need to but the best part about life is that it is all up to us to get back on track.
So here are a few of the portraits taken in late 2016.
I can not wait to sit here again and share all that I have been meaning to share. Feelings mostly. Life lessons. Photography. I can't tell you to tune in every Monday morning (or Friday night for that matter) for a blog update but I can tell you that I am not letting go of this space.
So while I did share photos on my Instagram account (and that's really all the online socializing I have done), I haven't made time to post the last few photos of my 52 project in 2016 here. It is so easy to let weeks after weeks go by. It was the purpose of the project when I started it two years ago : a creative d i s c i p l i n e. I have come to realize that I need this discipline, it has helped tremendously with my non-practical-self. I didn't know I needed that discipline so badly until I let go of it a few month ago. Things happen in life, we can't control it all and sometimes we just have to go with the flow and sleep when we need to but the best part about life is that it is all up to us to get back on track.
So here are a few of the portraits taken in late 2016.
I can not wait to sit here again and share all that I have been meaning to share. Feelings mostly. Life lessons. Photography. I can't tell you to tune in every Monday morning (or Friday night for that matter) for a blog update but I can tell you that I am not letting go of this space.
