- the quality of being thankful; readiness to show appreciation for and to return kindness
How weird is it to fear a month? I won't think about it until something tragic happens and I realize oh! It's November!
It started 19 years ago when my mom passed away suddenly in front of my eyes. 8 years ago it was my best friend who committed suicide. I wasn't thinking about it at all this year until the horrific tragedy happened in Paris : Friday, November 13.
It took a few hours before I was able to reach out to all the people I deeply and dearly love who live in Paris. Sisters, cousins, friends.
Gratitude is something I have been trying to bring into my life on a daily basis these past few month. I consider myself as a happy lucky woman. Yet I realized I wasn't truly expressing my gratitude quite as much as I would want to.
A few month ago I started a gratitude-note-book. Nothing fancy. Just a little note-book I try to open almost everyday to write down what I am thankful for this very day. It doesn't have to be anything spectacular. It could be as simple as a laughter that lasted longer than usual, it could be that Gurvan won his first own bid at work (okay that is spectacular!), it could be that I am grateful for a friend who took a minute to text me some nice words, it could be the rainbow making my drive to the grocery store breathtaking, I could be thankful for the cashier who carried my 5 gallons of water for me, the man who held the door, thankful that my bikini still fits (barely), I can be thankful for a smooth evening with our boy putting himself to bed.
On November the 14th I was thankful to find out all of my friends were safe, realizing only then how close of a call it had been for a few of them. It does feel somewhat biter and selfish as some people weren't so lucky.
This tragedy has made my desire to be grateful everyday even stronger.
Complaints are easy. We all miss something in our lives. We all wish we had a healthy family, tons of money, a handsome perfect hubby, the latest trendy boots, great cooking skills, the perfect downward-dog pose, the perfect skin (boobs, lips, eyes, hair, calves, toes, you name it), all of this wrapped up in a drama-free happy world. The truth is we tend to focus on what may be missing but miss to see what we do have and what the universe sends our way everyday.
It makes such a big difference at the end of my day when I seat down for a few minutes and contemplate what I am grateful for. Forget the asshole who stole your parking spot with a wink and a smile. Whatever my days are made of, I realized that I always have something I can be grateful for. It's easy. Even if I had a total fucked up day, I'm here to talk about it : alive = grateful!
Might sound naive. But such a good exercise. Not as easy at first as one may think. And really. Even those bad days have their share of beauty only waiting for us to open our eyes.
I also believe that being grateful and sending a thankful message out to the universe does go a long way. Do you want to be nice over and over again to someone who never expresses any gratitude? No! I am not talking about sparkles and golden rewards but a genuine Thank You keeps me wanting to keep helping as much as I possibly can.
Why would the universe be nice to you if you never express your gratitude?
How could you express your gratitude if you don't take a minute to focus on all those beautiful little tiny moments that you get to live?
Becoming a lot more minimalist in my approach to life and possessions, re-thinking the value of time, opening my heart to more gratitude everyday...These are all work-in-progress. I still catch myself every now and then (often more than I'd want) having time-wasting-thoughts, but I have noticed that I now and most of the time catch the thoughts before they make their way too deep and I am able to kick them out of my brain as soon as they appear.
Conscious and Thankful for a Meaningful Life.
(photo above is a selfie! I'm holding the camera and we are laughing so hard making all kind of faces. Lucky this one turned out so good!).